this weekend i was in a wedding in charleston. i spent a lot of time with awesome girls. and, we talked a lot about crying:
"do you cry at weddings? did you cry at your wedding? will you cry tomorrow? where will you hide your tissues? how weepy will corrine be as she comes down the aisle? how weepy will pierce be? will corrine see pierce start to cry and then lose it or will pierce see corrine start to cry and lose it? do you have waterproof mascara? will you need waterproof mascara?
we are girls. and it was a wedding. so we talked about crying.
when asked if i thought i'd cry i told the other girls that i rarely cry. i told them that the only time i really cry is when i am really frustrated or really scared.
but today, i realized that that's not exactly true. because today as we arrived back in durham and i let two of my sole-mate best friends, laura and jen, get in their car and drive off to northern virginia, i started crying. i remember when i was little i used to cry so much when i had to say goodbye to friends. when i was about six, my best friend sarabeth moved to texas. i wept and wept and wept when their big suburban drove away. in elementary school one of my best friends had to leave my school, i was beside myself...cried like a baby. back then it was usually my dad's arms that i was falling into, helpless with tears. today is was adam's.
i cry when i'm frustrated,
or saying goodbye to friends.
but i also realized this weekend that although i didn't cry during most of my wedding, the two times i absolutely LOST it were 1. when amber porter started praying over me before the ceremony and 2. when we were singing how great thou art. so i guess, i also cry when i'm overwhelmed by who God is and how much He loves me.
and God's love.
these things make me cry.
and also cutting onions.
i thought i wasn't much of a crier.
apparently i am.
are you a crier? what makes you cry? do you embrace your crier-ness/lack thereof?
|laura, me, and jen at the rehearsal dinner. not crying yet.|